"He was as miserably isolated now as he had been when the service began - more isolated by reason of his unreplenished emptiness, his dead satiety. Separate and unatoned, while the others were being fused into the Greater Being; alone even in Morgana's embrace - much more alone, indeed, more hopelessly himself than he had ever been in his life before.... He was utterly miserable, and perhaps (her shining eyes accused him), perhaps it was his own fault." (pg. 86)
Bernard's stream of consciousness is very dreary and melancholy. He seems to get more depressed as the book goes on. This stream of consciousness makes Bernard seem like he has no self-confidence and that he is on the edge of suicide. His isolation is strange to me because he is not alone in the room of twelve people. Bernard had just celebrated something religious (I think?) that should have made him feel closer to the spirit (or whatever), but it is doing the exact opposite.
I also want to point out the similarities that this religious service has to the Catholic Mass. There is a leader who leads the worship, like a priest in a Catholic Mass. They kept saying "Ford" which I think is like us saying "Lord." They make the T sign like a cross in the Catholic faith, and they sing hymns like Catholics. Even though Bernard only goes every other week, I believe that this might be his religious aspect in his life.
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